The Tin Man

I have felt that pain couple times

pain in the gut, the feeling that you are missing something

someone

this pain is not new

for some reason, I get over it

I find what I am/was looking for

Each time I welcome her back

she lays beside me and promises not to leave me

and I believe her

forgetting her past transgressions I dive in

Head first

Forgetting her past transgressions… 

old memories and emotions take over

making me an emotional mess

but I endure, I might like it

because its her, 

She gives it to me good all the time

I am out with the guys, I see her

with a guy, comfy and snuggly

she sees me…

I laugh

at her? No. 

at myself? Yes.

Cos I am certain it’s the last time…

Knock on the door…

who is it? I ask…

a familiar voice answers... "its me"

My heart melts

I push the button…

Sitting, thinking about what I have done…

with a glass of Jameson in hand and 

ice dancing around in glass as if happy with what I had done

I smile and take long drag of the cigar…

Yes I did it.

HOLY WANKERS

i can't lie...

i am tired of being part of a society or better still secret society

of pedophiles and undercover man lovers... 

i am talking about the Catholic Church. 

we (i) have tried to disregard all the rumors and retarded-ass allegations of the priests and bishops

but i wake up everyday to find that once again they have wasted my time. 

yes you are human, yes you have urges, and yes you will sin... but..

NO you do not have to be a priest! 

the fuck is wrong with you people? do you realize the position you are/were sworn into?

do you realize how you affect peoples lives, believes and faith?

do you fucking understand that the only reason why that church hasn't crumbled today

is the individual beliefs and understandings of the teachings?

i put it to you that if you holy wankers were all we had to look up to the Catholic Church 

would be easily compared to an old-ass whore with no customers. 

Yes some of these allegations might be false, but i beg you stay away from compromising situations. 

stay away from shit that ties you to bullshit.

we know its not easy... but you made that conscious decision to carry that cross... 

if at any point it gets too heavy for you... drop it and keep it moving.

i honestly doubt that God will be pissed...

and for the rest of you that will read this and be like

"the Catholic Church has lost it"

Think again... without this church a lot of us would not know what it means to be Christian...

yes... the church has been infiltrated with pretend priests and cardinals but i know that they 

 will answer to some higher power after all is said and done. 

our doctrine brings us together, our faith keeps us together

and you holy wankers will not tear us apart...

FUCKTARDS!