That moment
when it seems like there is no point.
No point
going out…
No point
meeting new people.
No point
trying to build something with someone new.
It’s all
pointless…
A joke.
Everything
is a mess…
And I would
rather exist in that lonely mess
That way
I don’t have to worry about someone else
Until you
finally realize that you were right…
There really
is no point!
That
depression starts to creep in.
You’re sure
you want to drink it away
But that
Jameson don’t taste right,
Don’t get
you tipsy no more.
It’s like
poison and you wonder,
Is there any
escape?
I am not at
least allowed to drown in my own sorrow?
What.The.Fuck
is the point of all of this?
“We head to the club, have drinks,
pretend to be
interested in the
random ass conversation you're having
with a complete
stranger…"
In Her mind: ohh he is really smart, and seems to be
interesting, nice arms
In My mind: she's got a nice smile, phat ass and great
tits… can I touch?
We exchange numbers… but I know I won't call and the games
begin…
She waits for me… I'm off drinking…
She calls me… I'm somewhere chillin'
She waits for me… I don’t even remember I ever met her
I bump into her randomly… and I don’t know who she is
Met her a
couple times
She’d invite
me out.
Never made
it…
What’s the
point?
I’m not
interested,
Can’t be
interested.
Don’t want to
be interested.
At this
point,
I hate the
thought of being interested.
What’s the
point?
It all ends
the same way…
Someone
pissed at someone for something someone did to someone
It’s too
noisy.
Too many
people.
I walk out,
my mind racing.
Why am I
here?
How did I
get here?
Where did
this drink come from?
My phone
rings
And it’s
her…
She says
she’s missed me.
I feel a
little light-headed…
The Jameson
suddenly kicks in
And I can
finally hear the ice dance in the glass
"All of a sudden the noise fades…
the music sounds good
The people look different…
happier, less desperate
The Jameson tastes…
richer"
I take
another sip to be sure I'm not trippin’.
Tonight
could be fun
Now I get
it… that’s the whole point to this cycle of pointlessness
The search
for that one moment of clarity…
When nothing
matters and everything seems worth it
We live then
inevitably die.
How we live is what matters.
Some are
lucky to find someone to share that life with,
Others…
Not so
fortunate.
Good luck to
you on the journey.
May your
Jameson forever taste like the nectar of the gods.